Friday, October 24, 2014

Project 52 2014 (44/52): Big Yellow Taxi

.:Project 52 2014 (44/52): Big Yellow Taxi:.

Don't it always seem to go, that you don't know what you got 'til it's gone?

Sunday, October 19, 2014

Project 52 2014 (43/52): Out Of Reach

.:Project 52 2014 (43/52): Out Of Reach:.

I really was stupid for a while. It was so easy to get caught up in the rapture, that you forget that things aren't actually anywhere nearly as good as you think it is. And that's how it went on for so long. I fooled myself into thinking the world of you, so thank you for pulling the plug on me and revealing exactly why I deserved better than you.

Was I ever loved by you? Probably not. You probably don't even know what the word means up to this very moment. I never had your heart. And the moment you got what you needed from me you just lay in wait for the first excuse to cut and run.

Don't say I never did right by you. Don't go around painting me as the bad guy in all of this, when after all has been said and done, you bailed on me when you found that I have outlived my usefulness. 

Now, you are indeed out of reach. And I'm done stretching.

Friday, October 10, 2014

Project 52 2014 (42/52): The More You Ignore Me (The Closer I Get)

.:Project 52 2014 (42/52): The More You Ignore Me (The Closer I Get):.

Need I say anything more? Happy birthday, dearest!

Friday, October 03, 2014

Project 52 2014 (41/52): Bad Romance

.:Project 52 2014 (41/52): Bad Romance:.

I want your love and I want your revenge, you and me could write a bad romance...

Friday, September 26, 2014

Project 52 2014 (40/52): Easy

.:Project 52 2014 (40/52): Easy:.

I wanna be high, so high. I wanna be free to know the things I do are right. I wanna be free, just free...

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Before I Fly Off...

.:All My Bags Are Packed, I'm Ready To Go...:.

So yeah, I'm headed out to Thailand in a couple of days, and won't be back 'til I'm 31. And already, there are a lot of changes. Great changes.

Pictured: Love at first sight.

Well, yes, that's a PS4. And yeah, that's a bit of treat I had for myself after the windfall I finally got because of all the work I've been doing since I quit my job.

But that isn't really the biggest change, obviously. This would probably be the biggest change...

It isn't with the PS4.

And I have to say, I'm happy. It came at the right time. It came at a time where I knew I was ready for it, rather than at a time where I just needed a distraction. In fact, things came together so quickly I haven't even figured out a code name for her yet. But needless to say, it was a long time coming, and even if she changes her mind tomorrow or the day after, I can safely say that this was a relationship I was prepared for.

It's refreshing to find someone who regards you as an equal instead of a subservient. It's a good change of pace to be appreciated for who you are, and not just remembered when there's nobody else to turn to. Ultimately, it's great to realize you are far more than just somebody's last resort. But it didn't happen overnight, because you built yourself over time to become that kind of person. And it's when someone realizes that about you that you begin to understand that the changes weren't because you just wanted to be with someone, anyone.

The changes were because you want to be a better person, period.

So I don't know where the next coming days will take me, but it's an exciting journey I'm rushing headlong into with eyes wide open. Because I don't wanna miss a thing.

But for now, even if this post isn't part of my Project 52, allow me to share a song with y'all...

Project 52 2014 (39/52): Another Used To Be

.:Project 52 2014 (39/52): Another Used To Be:.

I used to think relationships were a lot of stress, I used to think that pain was a part of happiness. Now all that's changed, since you've come my way. I don't want us to become another used to be...

Friday, September 19, 2014

Project 52 2014 (38/52): Stay

.:Project 52 2014 (38/52): Stay:.

Some of us hover while we're waiting for the other who was dying since the day they were born, well, this is not that: I think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrown. 

And I thought of it forever, now I'm not so sure, you try to tell me that I'm clever, but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere, with you.

You said that I was naive and, I thought that I was strong. I thought, "hey I could leave, I could leave," but now I know that I was wrong. 'Cause I missed you.