.:Dark Clouds...:.
Lately, I do feel like I'm getting cold feet about going to Australia. I've been feeling so bruised and battered over the circumstances, and it's been taking its toll on me, in all honesty. I gave so much of myself all this time, so you could just imagine how difficult it really is for me to just go on with my day and ignore the cloud looming over my head.
Had another argument and I almost had to cancel my ticket altogether.
I am so drained. I am so tired. I talked to Christine and Jonsi as they were in town earlier this week, and it was a pleasant surprise hearing from them, but there's no question that I was really feeling the crunch of the trip. It feels like a fool's errand. No... it's not just a feeling. I all but know that I'm going there to have my heart broken.
And yet, I still must.
Because I love her. And I guess I always will.
Friday, May 10, 2013
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
My Gwiyomi Video...
... no, I'm not doing one. What do you guys think I am? Stupid? Hahahaha!
That being said, I finally got my Visa, and will be headed to Australia soon! So excited!
That being said, I finally got my Visa, and will be headed to Australia soon! So excited!
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Life Gets In The Way. I'm Not Complaining
.:Life Gets In The Way:.
But it's all good, really, and I don't mind. Work in the office has been pretty hectic but awesome, what with all the stuff I've had to come up with for the 8List. You might notice that I've been coughing up lists there, and writing on the POC on a sorta regular basis, and with everything I do currently geared towards my Australian trip, I honestly don't miss blogging that much as of late.
And that's fine, I suppose. I have a lot on my plate, and while I'd love to blog about it all, I try my best to let snippets off it get through on my Twitter or Facebook. I'm going through life at a breakneck pace lately, and I only have games of Tekken Card Tournament to take my mind off of a lot of the stress that's been eating at me, so I suppose I should be very grateful, all things considered.
Our food truck is up and running in Andare, just outside Glorietta, during the weekends. It's called Kuyang, and the food is splendid. You really should go and try it if you're ever in the area. There's still the Rowdy Empire, although KDL has been doing the show by his lonesome for a while already, and I join him every now and then from 9-12 midnight on a Monday or Tuesday, although he's there Mondays to Thursdays.
Yes, I still do my standup comedy and I still do or watch improv, and yes, I'm still very much a mentalist. Wait 'til you see the new stuff I've been up to, even. Overall, life hasn't changed insomuch as it's just been filled with a whole lot more stuff for me to be busy and occupied with. That's something I can't really complain about, even if I do feel like I'm swamped most of the time.
I'm just counting down the days to when I go to Australia, and I hope with all ferventness that things will go swimmingly well once I'm there. Otherwise, I guess I'm going to be a sad sack for a loooong while. Well, what can I do, right?
If anybody actually misses my writing, just check out my output on the 8List. I'm pretty proud of what I've managed to come up with there.
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.:Life Gets In The Way:.
But it's all good, really, and I don't mind. Work in the office has been pretty hectic but awesome, what with all the stuff I've had to come up with for the 8List. You might notice that I've been coughing up lists there, and writing on the POC on a sorta regular basis, and with everything I do currently geared towards my Australian trip, I honestly don't miss blogging that much as of late.
And that's fine, I suppose. I have a lot on my plate, and while I'd love to blog about it all, I try my best to let snippets off it get through on my Twitter or Facebook. I'm going through life at a breakneck pace lately, and I only have games of Tekken Card Tournament to take my mind off of a lot of the stress that's been eating at me, so I suppose I should be very grateful, all things considered.
Our food truck is up and running in Andare, just outside Glorietta, during the weekends. It's called Kuyang, and the food is splendid. You really should go and try it if you're ever in the area. There's still the Rowdy Empire, although KDL has been doing the show by his lonesome for a while already, and I join him every now and then from 9-12 midnight on a Monday or Tuesday, although he's there Mondays to Thursdays.
Yes, I still do my standup comedy and I still do or watch improv, and yes, I'm still very much a mentalist. Wait 'til you see the new stuff I've been up to, even. Overall, life hasn't changed insomuch as it's just been filled with a whole lot more stuff for me to be busy and occupied with. That's something I can't really complain about, even if I do feel like I'm swamped most of the time.
I'm just counting down the days to when I go to Australia, and I hope with all ferventness that things will go swimmingly well once I'm there. Otherwise, I guess I'm going to be a sad sack for a loooong while. Well, what can I do, right?
But it's all good, really, and I don't mind. Work in the office has been pretty hectic but awesome, what with all the stuff I've had to come up with for the 8List. You might notice that I've been coughing up lists there, and writing on the POC on a sorta regular basis, and with everything I do currently geared towards my Australian trip, I honestly don't miss blogging that much as of late.
And that's fine, I suppose. I have a lot on my plate, and while I'd love to blog about it all, I try my best to let snippets off it get through on my Twitter or Facebook. I'm going through life at a breakneck pace lately, and I only have games of Tekken Card Tournament to take my mind off of a lot of the stress that's been eating at me, so I suppose I should be very grateful, all things considered.
Our food truck is up and running in Andare, just outside Glorietta, during the weekends. It's called Kuyang, and the food is splendid. You really should go and try it if you're ever in the area. There's still the Rowdy Empire, although KDL has been doing the show by his lonesome for a while already, and I join him every now and then from 9-12 midnight on a Monday or Tuesday, although he's there Mondays to Thursdays.
Yes, I still do my standup comedy and I still do or watch improv, and yes, I'm still very much a mentalist. Wait 'til you see the new stuff I've been up to, even. Overall, life hasn't changed insomuch as it's just been filled with a whole lot more stuff for me to be busy and occupied with. That's something I can't really complain about, even if I do feel like I'm swamped most of the time.
I'm just counting down the days to when I go to Australia, and I hope with all ferventness that things will go swimmingly well once I'm there. Otherwise, I guess I'm going to be a sad sack for a loooong while. Well, what can I do, right?
If anybody actually misses my writing, just check out my output on the 8List. I'm pretty proud of what I've managed to come up with there.
But it's all good, really, and I don't mind. Work in the office has been pretty hectic but awesome, what with all the stuff I've had to come up with for the 8List. You might notice that I've been coughing up lists there, and writing on the POC on a sorta regular basis, and with everything I do currently geared towards my Australian trip, I honestly don't miss blogging that much as of late.
And that's fine, I suppose. I have a lot on my plate, and while I'd love to blog about it all, I try my best to let snippets off it get through on my Twitter or Facebook. I'm going through life at a breakneck pace lately, and I only have games of Tekken Card Tournament to take my mind off of a lot of the stress that's been eating at me, so I suppose I should be very grateful, all things considered.
Our food truck is up and running in Andare, just outside Glorietta, during the weekends. It's called Kuyang, and the food is splendid. You really should go and try it if you're ever in the area. There's still the Rowdy Empire, although KDL has been doing the show by his lonesome for a while already, and I join him every now and then from 9-12 midnight on a Monday or Tuesday, although he's there Mondays to Thursdays.
Yes, I still do my standup comedy and I still do or watch improv, and yes, I'm still very much a mentalist. Wait 'til you see the new stuff I've been up to, even. Overall, life hasn't changed insomuch as it's just been filled with a whole lot more stuff for me to be busy and occupied with. That's something I can't really complain about, even if I do feel like I'm swamped most of the time.
I'm just counting down the days to when I go to Australia, and I hope with all ferventness that things will go swimmingly well once I'm there. Otherwise, I guess I'm going to be a sad sack for a loooong while. Well, what can I do, right?
Monday, April 08, 2013
Out Of Circulation...
.:Yet Another "It's Been A While" Post...:.
Hey. It's been a while.
Well, I wish I could say this is the turning point and I'll be back to my legendary blogging of old, but it isn't. If anything, it's a realization that blogging has become less and less an important part of my life as more things actually happen in it to the point where I can't find time for anything else any longer.
That being said, though, I wish I could make an effort to blog more, really. I want to keep documenting what's been going on in my life and to just see for myself what it all means for me. It's all crazy sometimes, really.
In any case, I'm pretty bushed, and a lot of that is because I had to fix my Australian Visa, as I'm headed to that country sometime next month. That's been eating most of my time, as has been the stuff I've been doing for work, especially with the 8List going into full swing lately. I've been reconnecting with My Beloved, and surprisingly, the Gynius as well. Will wonders never cease.
It's been a crazy time for me, and I'm hoping I can make heads and tails of it soon enough, especially with how I'm trying to get back into the thick of mentalism and everything else in between.
Someday, it'll all make sense. All of it. But for now, I will just remain a tad dazed and confused, I suppose.
Hey. It's been a while.
Well, I wish I could say this is the turning point and I'll be back to my legendary blogging of old, but it isn't. If anything, it's a realization that blogging has become less and less an important part of my life as more things actually happen in it to the point where I can't find time for anything else any longer.
That being said, though, I wish I could make an effort to blog more, really. I want to keep documenting what's been going on in my life and to just see for myself what it all means for me. It's all crazy sometimes, really.
In any case, I'm pretty bushed, and a lot of that is because I had to fix my Australian Visa, as I'm headed to that country sometime next month. That's been eating most of my time, as has been the stuff I've been doing for work, especially with the 8List going into full swing lately. I've been reconnecting with My Beloved, and surprisingly, the Gynius as well. Will wonders never cease.
It's been a crazy time for me, and I'm hoping I can make heads and tails of it soon enough, especially with how I'm trying to get back into the thick of mentalism and everything else in between.
Someday, it'll all make sense. All of it. But for now, I will just remain a tad dazed and confused, I suppose.
Friday, March 15, 2013
On Today's Tragic News...
.:I Need To Get On My Soapbox Briefly...:.
I've been delinquent with blogging, what with My Beloved back in Australia, and all the things I have to deal with at work lately. It's been a time of transition and adjustment for me, and it feels wildly frustrating.
Of course, it is with a heavy heart that I discovered that the great Subas Herrero passed away today. He lived a full life, I believe, and he will be missed. It is sad, indeed, but not necessarily tragic.
However, what is tragic is that today, a 16-year old has apparently taken her life as she was consumed by a system that refused to help her out when she was down. And as much as I'd like to be on my high horse while I'm on my soapbox, too, I realize that in my complicity and complacency, some of that blame falls squarely upon me.
Which is precisely why the last thing I would do is to blame her for it, and to tell her what she did is wrong. It's an exercise of futility: she's not even there to hear it.
I am not a psychologist by practice. I am not the most empathic person around. Despite that, this is not the time nor the place to push one's moral agenda in the middle of a tragedy, and one that could have been prevented, in the first place. I had no desire to jump on the bandwagon, and I will probably jump off it as quickly as I came on it once I get to say what I need to say.
Over on Twitter, I had some very choice words for someone who decided that sensitivity was not the order of the day, and was shocked when he got his back. It upset me to no end because I realized that here was a person who failed to see that this girl who took her own life was a victim, and we don't go around blaming victims.
I think back to the countless gay kids who have killed themselves because they were bullied relentlessly for who they were. I think back to how it must have felt to be in their shoes, and the awful things that they must have gone through, and I cannot, for the life of me, find it in my heart to condemn them. They were already condemned by their tormentors in their lives. Why would I choose to add to that in their deaths?
They were victims, as this 16-year old student was also a victim. Do I want to play the blame game from here? No. I'm not going to even go there. But I just refuse to take it sitting down that someone would dare attack this student, as if she even had any means of defending herself, whatsoever. She does not.
We say of those who have left us: "rest in peace." That's the least we could offer someone whose only true mistake was to put her faith in a system that failed her. And I, for one, choose to do so.
I do not know you, child. I have never met you. But may you rest in peace.
I've been delinquent with blogging, what with My Beloved back in Australia, and all the things I have to deal with at work lately. It's been a time of transition and adjustment for me, and it feels wildly frustrating.
Of course, it is with a heavy heart that I discovered that the great Subas Herrero passed away today. He lived a full life, I believe, and he will be missed. It is sad, indeed, but not necessarily tragic.
However, what is tragic is that today, a 16-year old has apparently taken her life as she was consumed by a system that refused to help her out when she was down. And as much as I'd like to be on my high horse while I'm on my soapbox, too, I realize that in my complicity and complacency, some of that blame falls squarely upon me.
Which is precisely why the last thing I would do is to blame her for it, and to tell her what she did is wrong. It's an exercise of futility: she's not even there to hear it.
I am not a psychologist by practice. I am not the most empathic person around. Despite that, this is not the time nor the place to push one's moral agenda in the middle of a tragedy, and one that could have been prevented, in the first place. I had no desire to jump on the bandwagon, and I will probably jump off it as quickly as I came on it once I get to say what I need to say.
Over on Twitter, I had some very choice words for someone who decided that sensitivity was not the order of the day, and was shocked when he got his back. It upset me to no end because I realized that here was a person who failed to see that this girl who took her own life was a victim, and we don't go around blaming victims.
I think back to the countless gay kids who have killed themselves because they were bullied relentlessly for who they were. I think back to how it must have felt to be in their shoes, and the awful things that they must have gone through, and I cannot, for the life of me, find it in my heart to condemn them. They were already condemned by their tormentors in their lives. Why would I choose to add to that in their deaths?
They were victims, as this 16-year old student was also a victim. Do I want to play the blame game from here? No. I'm not going to even go there. But I just refuse to take it sitting down that someone would dare attack this student, as if she even had any means of defending herself, whatsoever. She does not.
We say of those who have left us: "rest in peace." That's the least we could offer someone whose only true mistake was to put her faith in a system that failed her. And I, for one, choose to do so.
I do not know you, child. I have never met you. But may you rest in peace.
Friday, March 08, 2013
Song Lyrics: After All This Time, by The Itchyworms
.:After All This Time:.
Everyone knows how much of a fan I am of The Itchyworms, and how I've opened for them a few times before in the past.
Everyone knows how much of a fan I am of The Itchyworms, and how I've opened for them a few times before in the past.
After all these years, this is my only picture with the whole band!
Well, recently, they came out with a new song, and it's called "After All This Time." The first thing you will notice about it is that... it's an English song. Surprise, surprise! They're actually bilingual! Well, just kidding. We've heard "Season Of Smiles" before... heh.
The second thing you'll notice is that apparently, Jazz is handling lead vocal duties for this particular song, and it's awesome!
Anyways, if you've been living under a rock filled with nothing but bad OPM, let's change that right now with their official music video...
Sniff. Something got in my eye.
Doesn't the song just hit the spot? It really hit home for me, considering where I am in my life right now, and it's been nearly four years, when I think about it. Still, what a wonderful song, and I can't help but be reminded of how many songs The Itchyworms have had that never fails to really affect me to my very core. To put it in the vernacular, nakaka-antig ang mga kanta nila.
So. I checked online for lyrics and all that. Guess what? There were none! Since I was willing to keep listening to the song on loop anyways, I decided to take matters into my own hands, so with
all due credit to Jugs, Kel, Chino, and Jazz, here goes nothing...
After All This Time
by The Itchyworms
Walkin’ away
From what I felt
would never end
Lookin’ okay
But deep inside, I’m
lost in time
It’s never over
What I feel for you won’t die
We’re all getting older
But my heart keeps asking why
Refrain:
‘Cause I’ve thrown away my lucky stars
And my wishes don’t come true
I’ve been lookin’ up to heaven
While I’m cryin’ over you
‘Cause I can’t forget the good times
We’ve had when you were mine
I just wonder if you need me still
After all this time
I just wonder if you need me still
After all this time
You turned away
I called you back, but it’s no use
What can I say?
Now I know I’ve got nothing to lose
Sometimes I still miss you
I just wanted you to know
I can’t be without you
‘Cause my heart never stopped, I just had to give up
Repeat Refrain
Bridge:
I wanna know when you stopped tryin’
You’re part of all that I’ve been through
Were all these years of hopin’ for you just a waste of time?
‘Cause whatever I do
(Whatever I do)
It’s no good without you
(Insert rippin’ guitar solo here!!!)
So I’ve thrown away my lucky stars
‘Cause my wishes don’t come true
(Wishes don’t come true)
I’ve been lookin’ up to heaven
While I’m cryin’ over you
(Cryin’ over you)
‘Cause I can’t forget the good times
We’ve had when you were mine
I just wonder if you need me still
(Wonder if you still need me still)
Wonder if you need me still
After all this time
(After all this time)
After all this time
(Time)
After all this time
(Time)
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Halaga
.:Sa Libu-Libong Pagkakataon Na Tayo'y Nagkasama...:.
Currently have this song on repeat as I fill my head with thoughts of her, as she leaves me on a jetplane for a long, long while.
The things I found out in the time she was here, the things I learned, sent me to a point of anger I never thought I'd reach. Some people just really don't know what they have and choose to squander someone's love, someone's devotion, like some cheap toy they could easily get from anywhere.
She deserved better than that. And she did nothing to ever deserve the kind of hurt and betrayal that came her way after me.
So to you who hurt her, to you who never knew how wonderful a woman she was, and how she meant the world to me, only for you to treat her like dirt, I hope you suffer dearly for that. I hope I never see even just your shadow because you will rue the day that happens.
All I ever wanted was her happiness. Even if it meant somebody else. But you? You ruined that for her. You almost shattered her wide-eyed innocence and her trust in the goodness of the world as you played her for a fool.
And you have the temerity to act like it was nothing, you son of a bitch? This was all a game to you?!? I've never seen anything more deplorable, and quite frankly, I am sickened to the bone by people like you.
I despise you. I despise you with every bone in my body. But for as long as I am here, I will turn all that hatred into good. I will be there for her. I will show her that there is such a thing as true, steadfast love. Because she deserves it. Which is far more than can be said of you, and far more than anything you could ever be capable of giving in your miserable excuse of a life.
You will be forgotten. But she will be loved.
Currently have this song on repeat as I fill my head with thoughts of her, as she leaves me on a jetplane for a long, long while.
The things I found out in the time she was here, the things I learned, sent me to a point of anger I never thought I'd reach. Some people just really don't know what they have and choose to squander someone's love, someone's devotion, like some cheap toy they could easily get from anywhere.
She deserved better than that. And she did nothing to ever deserve the kind of hurt and betrayal that came her way after me.
So to you who hurt her, to you who never knew how wonderful a woman she was, and how she meant the world to me, only for you to treat her like dirt, I hope you suffer dearly for that. I hope I never see even just your shadow because you will rue the day that happens.
All I ever wanted was her happiness. Even if it meant somebody else. But you? You ruined that for her. You almost shattered her wide-eyed innocence and her trust in the goodness of the world as you played her for a fool.
And you have the temerity to act like it was nothing, you son of a bitch? This was all a game to you?!? I've never seen anything more deplorable, and quite frankly, I am sickened to the bone by people like you.
I despise you. I despise you with every bone in my body. But for as long as I am here, I will turn all that hatred into good. I will be there for her. I will show her that there is such a thing as true, steadfast love. Because she deserves it. Which is far more than can be said of you, and far more than anything you could ever be capable of giving in your miserable excuse of a life.
You will be forgotten. But she will be loved.
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